It's about getting your hopes up high and when things don't happen the way you want them to you've only yourself to blame. Like WTF right....

I hate it when I conjure up these little specific ideas in my head about what I'm gonna do for myself.. or for someone else and the plan always seems so damn perfect until the time to execute the actions arrive then I procrastinate and have doubts and subconsciously feel the feasibility level of the idea gets more impossible. I blind myself with such thoughts of perfection and the benefits I'll reap if all goes well and stop just there. Cuz when you think happy, that's all there is to it. You don't usually think of the sad process towards the happy. Maybe THIS is what we call goal setting, except its mental and not out in the open where other people can see bullet points popping outta your head that they can read and rectify, or even disagree to. Sometimes I feel happy when I think about achieving something. Because you don't really think about the process, you think of its end product. Or even if you do think of the process of attaining this end product and it seems hard and overwhelmingly tiring..... wth? just look at the end product. That's what matters right? And then time passes and not everything goes smoothly. You get dilemmas on whether or not to give up but usually just press on since we're halfway there already. Self defeat's totally not an option. But for how long?

Sigh. You don't know anything, do you? No idea at all.